I have a little time alone tonight so I
thought I’d share a little bit about what’s going on with us. We’re hanging in
there…we keep on keeping on if that makes any sense. We might be dangling
at times this week, but overall on the upswing. These past few weeks
Derek’s been slowly healing and gaining strength, which has been a delight to
watch. It seems like every few days I see a little more of the old Derek…that
sarcastic beefcake that always keeps me on my toes...oh how I love this
guy. We ran into a few road bumps at the end of last week though, and he
is back in the hospital at the moment. He’s okay…not having overnight multiple
organ failure or anything like before (thank the Lord). But some of those
underlying issues that could have possibly caused all of this to begin with are
rearing their gnarly little heads again. The doctors are all over him
though, which is good and bad (poor Derek…he’s pretty sick of being drilled
about his medical history by teams of doctors). We’re pretty sure he’ll be
able to come home in a day or two though – which we are both REALLY looking
forward to. One thing we've found out is that Derek will be
having heart surgery in the coming months…so he still has another hospital stay
in the near future. Please be praying for his overall health to continue
to improve. We need him strong for this. These new developments
have been a little hard to swallow, but we are still trusting God and
His plans for our family.
One of the things that God has been
teaching me is to WORSHIP Him, even in the middle of this mess. To be able
to stand in a situation that I don’t necessarily like or want and to do nothing
and offer nothing but worship to God…that is truly a life changer for this
girl. Worship is not something I'm good at even on Sunday mornings...I
sing and I love the words, but I can't say that this heart truly worships
this God of ours in those moments. He is working on me though...in
ALL of this....and giving me a desire to praise Him. To set aside what I
want in life…the dreams we have…the things we think we need…all of it. To
push it all to the side for a moment and just stand in praise to a worthy God
and surrender. It's an awesome and humbling experience.
A friend shared this song with me a week or
so ago…“Though You Slay Me” by Shane and Shane. I’ve been listening to
this every day, my heart singing the lyrics to God in worship. There’s an
excerpt from John Piper at the end as well that touches on the verse in
2Cor4:17...the one about our light and momentary troubles achieving for us
an eternal glory that far outweighs them all…oh Amen. I worship God because HE
IS GOD and THAT alone is enough really...but I'm also so thankful that He
gives us more in these moments...that there is purpose in this
struggle!
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